I miss you mom :(

Everything is my fault. You tried so hard to be a good mom to me and I acted like I didn’t even care about you. I called you Holly, and I disrespected you in every way imaginable. Listen to what you said and everything you told me to do? Not once. I constantly put you down for things that didn’t even matter. And I took your medicine every chance I got. Whether it being me sneaking out to your car after you fell asleep, or just straight taking it when you turned your back. Im so sorry mom. Ive messed up countless times in my life but this is something ill never be able to forget. I mean, you’re my mom. The one and only. And I ruined it. everything. and took total advantage of you. I can’t say sorry enough, and you dont know how much I wish I could just tell you this. :( but you’re gone now, and its too late. I just need you more than ever right now. You were one of the last people I had in my life that actually cared. I could tell you things, and you understood. I made my life the way it is now and I can’t change that. Mostly everything was my decision. I would have chosen to stay and live with Wes, but that wasn’t an option. I think of him a lot. living at our house in esmond and it makes me miss how it used to be. Ive never felt this kind of pain before and I really dont know what to do at this point. I just want you to know how I truely feel mom, I love you and always will. I miss you and I just want you back. I want our life again, I want you to tell me its all gonna be okay, I want to restart. Fix it. Make everything better. :( I just wish that you’re able to read this and know. Its really killing me.

I miss you mom :(

In about three years holla at me Miley Cyrus.